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Mitsuki_Sonada
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Name: Risa
Birthday: 9/24/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: anime, manga, YAOI/SHOUNENAI [and maybe shota...o_o depends, really], games, sleeping, drawing, piano
Expertise: o_____o i'll find this out one day...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
6/23/2003
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| Wow, it's been a while...
Hm.
I have the feeling that I am losing a set of friends...very precious and dear to me.
I've never heard from them in what seems to be years but only a few months.
Do you hate me? Is there something wrong with me that just made you stop being my friend?
What the hell did I do to you?
I know I'm not as smart, I'm a lazy and immature person...is that it? Have you certainly changed so much that you cannot keep in touch with me?
Is it because I am not a successful person? Am I not smart enough/nice enough for you?
Well my apologies for not striving to do my best, apparently.
I've never been sharp but, back in those days, you were still my friend.
So then, what is it?
Maybe I am not doing so much on my part as a friend but that's just because I don't know if you're busy. You're always doing something, some kind of event that prevents me from wanting to bother you with my unnecessary ramblings or hangouts. I know you're trying to get through college...but still.
When you're out...when you're back at home...when you're having fun. Do you care?
It's kind of annoying how it seems that you don't.
It seems like I have to run into you for something so simple as to hang out for old time's sake.
If you just don't want to be my friend anymore then just say so.
You really don't know how annoyed and pissed off I am, do you?
I thought we were friends--as cheesy and cliche as that may sound. Seriously.
No, I am not an attention freak.
Sorry to be a bitch about this but...
I just want to know.
What am I to you?
Don't tell me here. You know who you are [and no, it's not you]. | | |
| Ugh, the birthday stuff again.
Sure, I may have been pushed many times in the past to have some party...or whatever but no, I think I'll pass for this year. You have lives, school, and [maybe] work to busy yourselves with. Some of you are just..."not here" anymore.
I don't know...maybe things will lighten up when the day nears but, for now, I really don't want to celebrate such a day. I never cared much for my birthday anyway.
Go ahead, cry, whine, yell, complain...[not that you would].
Nothing will work this time. | | |
| I just realized...
When I am out with friends--it is either because I invited myself somehow or it was my plan/idea to have that outing in the first place. I never get that "Hey! We're going out today, do you want to come?" from anyone [maybe my cousins sometimes but...that's a bit different].
Maybe I'm being selfish or some sort of attention-freak but it would be nice that I was thought of every now and then. So technically, I am lonely--even though I go out and have friends. I always feel guilty inviting myself, planning the outings...for once I'd love for someone else to invite me.
Enough of these "Hey cool! Can I come?" or "I want to go too!"
I feel like a loser, as if that is the only way for me.
Are my friends really my friends? Or am I just...there...the backup kid just in case someone else can't make it? The one everyone calls when they're in desperate need of more...
I guess that's what I am to my friends.
Nothing. | | |
| So life seems to keep failing yet my days remain positive...for some reasons unknown.
Why did I leave so early in the latest of hours?
Oh...that's right...I shouldn't care as much as I used to should I?
There are so many different people in this world...
I don't get myself right now.
Someone, tell me how to smile--for I have forgotten how.
-Risa-chan | | |
| The end is near.
So the fairy tale may not have a happy ending after all. Even if the princess loved the prince with all her heart--nothing can change the eminent future for the two. Falling to the ground, the princess let her tears fall to her dress and then covered her face with her hands, crying ever so softly. The prince would have been out of her life anyway...
What will ever happen to the princess? Who never knew what love was till she came upon this prince? We will never know for now but pray that she will live happily ever after in the end.
Till the day comes, sleep well, dear princess.
--Risa-chan | | |
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